Bad Air
Bad Airis an exploration of the historical accounts + folklore of the 14th century outbreak of the bubonic plague in Europe.
Initial research uncovered some unthinkable practices implemented during that time period. From a poetic standpoint, it's really quite fascinating how in a time of fear from the threat of death, we can do such horrible things to one another. This series is an attempt to use language to reflect on the negative behavior that came in tow with the disease.
Huge thank you to Amy Miller for collaborating on this project with me. She followed me through back alleys, burned down buildings, and sketchy underpasses to get the shots included in this series. Don't let her modesty fool you, she is incredibly talented and truly made this project come alive. It would not have turned out the way it did without her.
Hair Back
photo by Amy Miller
tunneling through straw
at the curbside, ridden
I can see it in your sooty eyes
it has befallen this city
it will come for me too
this sickness entangled
in the disengaged air
windrose, the root at peak
soon they will be crying over me
for who can remember
when the rope knotted
like a noose swung slow
around our necks
begging the silence to begin
ring the kindred spirits
let them loose from the den
of sin and keep a finger pointed
at the mirror within
kill me on this mattress
I'm alone with the rest
decrepit and bleeding
waiting for death
the streets know more about this
than we could ever imagine
in the sorrow of the hands
that sweep around the public dial
a recycled flat deficiency
with many ways to burn
and leave, pandering to
the exhibition of life with no reprieve
we slip small tokens of God
unprepared into our pocket chasms
and suck down floral residue
 
full of indecision
it's the reign of darkness
the siege of disease
its compounding swill of ignorance,
the rest of me
I lie still in the wake of repetition
and turn the other cheek to
episodic lessons
left in time to be touched
by the never and enough
The Flagellant
photo by Amy Miller
the self-repentant suffers
slog along in spellbound
 
crowds to escape their health
 
and quell the dreadful distress of
three-prong leather whips
 
a demonstration in the despoliation
 
of fear, to liquidate the evil shell of
 
sin bubbling within lymph nodes
 
beneath the skin
mortification of the flesh,
 
a scourge in every hand,
 
tormented by the wrath of
 
the fallen angel’s swift descent
 
they travel far from chapels
 
collapsing on the ground
flailing in the thorns of crucifixion
 
and bones of the damned
 
a public display of atonement
 
voyeurism unchecked
 
sweeping through every city
 
their tri-tails dragging in the wind
 
so violently they shake
 
plucking people from a mood
of horrific apprehension
 
feasting on apocalyptic food
 
mystery of the final moment
 
what the welted lacerations
 
bring, savoring fidelity
from under cover of
 
the second coming
 
the trumpets sound delirium
 
of psychotic, panicked grief
 
stricken down by the awful
 
scent of boil-ridden disease
 
a statement with four corners
 
fixed by broken belts of wood,
 
fooled by strength that pulled the weight
 
of a crude remembrance misconstrued
in the calculated dirt lines drawn
to delineate the final sketch
 
of a predetermined afterlife
 
beyond the shadow of death
City of Dis
photo by Amy Miller
at the quiet end of a corner
 
where many people pass,
 
a man sips his coffee with
 
his eyes trained on the glass
a stout reflection stiffened at the neck
 
the daily paper unfolded in his lap
 
the obituary section steals
his glance and he smirks in bitter
 
ruthlessness at those left dead
before him, slipping in
 
and out of different states
 
of consciousness
 
there’s a wailing of troubled
 
voices vibrating like insanity
 
a tenebrous shadow manifests
 
to ignite an internal attack
 
and though he cleans his plate
reaching for the check
 
he knows somewhere
 
in a fathomless depth
 
that there is no end
 
to endlessness
for some time now he’s
 
spun a dance like delusion
 
of darkness living in him
 
and when the call of night
 
comes to suffocate the sleeper
 
it torments the intersection
of bodies before the light
 
that creep along the edges
 
to kill the righteous
 
hidden in the swallow
of sorrow, the reality
 
of nonsense brings him shame
 
over the rainbow, out
 
the café and down the street
he peers through
small-framed windows
 
on a search for warning signs
 
that tingle when pulsation races
 
through his fingers
like the membrane of
 
a moment that defines
how it hurts to be human
moving through the city
 
in a casted role to be the viewer
 
inside the bedroom, the
 
prisoner considered
 
an ever-present sleeper in
 
the wake of a terrifying dream
 
he once heard someone speak
in tongues, pulling power
 
with a fall from grace
 
fighting against the circles
 
of fate with carefully
 
constructed phrasing
 
calling out His name
 
but there is no end
 
to endlessness
 
the dials connect
and spin
 
there is no end
 
to endlessness
 
infection comes again
Inside the Walls of Kaffa
photo by Amy Miller
corpses flung from the trebuchet
lie in waiting beyond the stone
when the people of the city came 
to dump the masses in the ocean
death the equalizer
 
democratic, we shall see
 
that when we’re even, heaven
 
opens up to let the workers
 
of iniquity deliver their decree
   
anything they’d understand
to cry out Lord, please hear our plea
 
of subjugations unto nature
from the coil of slight bodies
the toil of mass induction
 
panicked sellers taken leave
 
spreading out along the sea ports
 
from Crimea to Capri
 
they don’t have to choose
 
between death + no destruction
 
for when fear grabs hold of principal
 
there’s a loss of a skilled
 
thought process
 
shameless shaking below the deck
 
sailing across the channel
 
to an unknown end
away from sorrow toward
 
desire of the free,
 
unlimited breadth of spiritual
 
ecstasy to exist as is
 
Death Fog
photo by Amy Miller
it came by way of a
 
foamy miasma, a mix
 
of gas across the sea
tuned to kill with equality
 
churning like a wheel
 
with twisted spokes
 
bowed into winged-beings
the lesions drained of
 
absolution, the fool’s
 
maker on the rise
apprehensive waiting
 
for when time meets
no time
 
waxing figures melted
 
by the bedside,
 
an hourglass wound down
one breathless moment
to lift a dying refrain
 
which drives these weathered
 
carcasses slinking back
 
into the lifeless womb
 
the interloper sheds
 
some skin beneath the
 
dusky light of homespun
 
tales, peeling back
 
with retribution to lay on
 
shades of slow decay
 
ley lines reeling
 
sitting by the edge of the sea
 
uncovering the wistful
 
blips of meaning
 
in a fog intent on billowing
 
like some sick siege machine
 
to tell them you misunderstood
 
things aren’t what they seem
 
and maybe in two hundred years
 
someone will rewrite history
 
Love + Desertion
photo by Amy Miller
solitude by candles snap
 
the air in subtle moods
 
discoloring the bending motion
 
between two lovers in a room
 
when it happened she knew
 
not what to say nor do
 
so instead she stood in silence
 
manipulating attitudes
 
an elusive breeze brought
the death of waiting in the air
 
as she covered up to ward
 
off waves of violent bouts
 
of anxiety silenced in her throat
 
a glance cast back at her lover
 
lying there, his skin fading into
 
pale and ghastly shades
contrasted by the black
 
intensified protrusions
 
emerging from the creases
of his weakening body
  
he fell quickly into darkness
far from the flame
 
her love losing its luster
 
in the grim reality of death
 
she already knew what would
 
become of him
 
fear is like a bullet from the barrel
 
so quick you can’t escape
 
in the hours of the early morning
 
he called out her name
“I’m going for the doctor”
was all that she could say
 
then she walked
 
out of the house,
 
and kept walking away
Glass Eyes
photo by Amy Miller
breathing was heavy
in the days of due infection
 
through aromatic discretion
 
the beaks came through the city
 
rebalancing humor
he made the injection to drain
 
their blood on demand
 
solid eyes reflective of
 
disintegrating flesh
 
dispelling the smell
 
with a cover and a catch
 
stuffed full of flowers,
 
herbs, straws, and spices
 
withering away in the days
 
that lie ahead
 
to play the only role left
 
until they were all missing
 
and the rise became the fall
 
across street
 
translated health kept
 
tucked under slow reform
 
when they lifted their beaks
 
to the unknown and placed
 
their rubber hands upon
 
each patient melting on
their rotting beds
bitter, brave misleading
 
masks which came in peace
 
and left in death
 
Memento Mori
photo by Amy Miller
he awoke in deep reflection
on the transience of life
 
tearing apart the mirror
 
of vanity to learn the proper
 
art of dying
 
through detachment he sought rest,
 
bending over backward
 
to peel back all his skin
 
a classical invention to
 
turn off and fall apart
 
the ritualistic expression
just the way he had been taught
 
if you love enough
you must give up everything,
 
remember that you have to die
the thought returned from taking leave,
and in the wind doubt came
 
to pass like a suffocating
hand closed firm
 
around his neck
 
nobody wanted this
 
he didn’t ask for restitution
twisted into dilapidated
 
compounds of flesh and disease
the bell rings
when you’re too close
to the sound of trouble
 
it spills over when you’re not careful
 
to touch a bit of  the taste to
 
your tongue, then rip the
 
label off of everything
 
you’ve ever known
 
proves more powerful
 
than the strongest of elixirs
 
don’t act like this is
 
something you’ve never seen before
don’t act like this is foreign
we all know where the
sallow, somber fear of
 
nonexistence comes from
 
Creaking
photo by Amy Miller
three to five
a waking life
fit for fools and dying needs
a piecemeal wish of
 
shaking stimulation
 
wading through carefully
 
placed reeds
 
when what you want is to desire
 
and getting what you want
 
is to regret what did transpire
you hide inside
 
a prepared meeting
while fighting time contented
  
siphon off the energy
 
leave you there to waste
 
slaughter you,
 
grind you down to residue
 
like broken, dusty frame
 
an unchained seasoned victim
roosts inside, dormant kept
 
tranquil in desperation
 
sucking down each last breath
creaking at the summit
 
of a distilled expectation
 
tomorrow is the last day
 
and no one has the answer
 
respect kept still for the chosen few
 
who up and left the country
 
who took their time
 
to make plans for the future
 
ripe and keeping faithful chains
 
taut for all to see
 
membership depleting
 
for the fools down on their knees
 
The Cradle
photo by Amy Miller
inside a shell
the pit emerges
 
gasping for resuscitation
some mothers assume
 
this counts for something
a barrage, a purge
 
down countless numbers
 
the call kept calling
 
while their fathers fled
 
for solid ground
 
it’s easy to assume
 
that the cure is buried
 
beneath unfound knowledge
 
when supple breeding leads
 
to overproduction without
 
ample supply
 
and you know you’ve met sufficiency
when the hell hounds come crying
 
scooped up into her arms
 
a sleeping child is cradled
 
in the external womb
 
of elongated flesh made
 
to work like utensils
 
fit for petting zoos
 
she sung a whispered lullaby
 
down the canal of unremembered hope
 
if the children could speak
 
they’d know when to say enough
 
it’s abundancy, abundancy!
the dark cloud announced
 
as it came crawling over the cities
 
of the western seaboard
 
like a trail of diffused tragedy
meant to even the proportions
if negligence and disregard
 
are human to the touch
 
the world turns over in its grave
 
to make more room for us